Friends over partner. That’s what I have taken away. They have always been there for you so just because you have someone in your life, it doesn’t mean you can push them aside for someone else. That’s what I have been doing but it stops now.
Of course, you can integrate your partner in the meetings but there are times when you should just dedicate your time to meeting up with them alone. If you are with your friends, your partner should respect that and allow you to hang out with them without the constant messaging.
I have to qualify though that of course your partner is very high up in the priority list. It’s just that when it’s time for friends, it’ll be good if he can understand the space that you need for that few hours.
A lot of us go through life not knowing what we want. This journey of self-discovery has allowed me to discover what I am searching for and more importantly, understand myself better. It starts from identifying this as a problem you want to solve.
From the conversation with Roms, I understand now where my insecurities of myself and relationships stem from. I think… I understand what I want now. Not fully yet, but I’m getting there. It can only get better from here, for me and my partner.
As Roms goes “Chillax, Nicole, you have time.”
Chillax, I will try to be.
Everyday, I thank God for the friends he have given me.
Silly-via, Alicheng, Roms and Yuanie have been a big part of my life during this period. They have been accompanying me whenever they can and I sincerely appreciate every single moment.
Headed to Brussel Sprouts at East Coast with Syl, Moo and Alicheng on Saturday. I was so happy… the place was situated by the sea with the wind blowing against your face. They even have a magician to entertain us! It’s the first card trick that I’ve seen in a really long while. =) It’s no wonder why guys learn magic. It gets the girls to smile. The roof is made of translucent covering so when you look up, you can see the clouds changing its shape as it moves past. The jokes came fast and furious with silly-via making all the hilarious jokes and alicheng contributing with her views and cute laugh.
This is what they call bliss.
Thinking logically and letting go. It must be.
My mind was very disturbed today. I was really upset during the first session thinking about the issue. Although I was meditating, the issue was at the back of my mind.
In the second session, something clicked. I could logically work out the issue and map out exactly how it started and why it progressed the way it did. More importantly, I realised I could let go. A problem is only a problem because you allow it to be. And so, it ceased to be a problem.
I am very happy that I managed to progress this far. Thank you all who have allowed me to be where I am now.